Dealing with putdown and belittle in public

Gibber and Jabber begin at the attach and defence of any conversation in any social occasion......

I usually do not have any fear for anything in life, just lazy of dealing with any issue or attend any event did not help me paying bills.

Banter or persiflage take time and knowledge to make the ping-pong ball going back and forth. If the issue is attractive or constructive that might get my attention, on the other hand, if the issue is boring and with many boring, unattractive people like me involved, who would like to care.

Attending public event that usually talking about same old things because usually any topic that will be allowed to talked in public need to be restricted to be proper, plus the meeting or event conductor will be ever proper person who usually has already pre-set in mind to exclude un-welcomed person in attending any issue discussion.

I as Asian or Chinese American usually need to receive same old thing as verbal instruction making sure I have no problem in receiving the signals that I am typically unwelcome as a group. Group of same color, or type of background. As a matter of fact, I don't even able to pay my bills, what would I be interesting in attend any public event or go anywhere to receive any signal like this.

Skipping public funded events or community program became as the result of people like me would rather spend time on surviving issue rather than any issue aiming in air. Actually, it as I think is the purpose of those verbal instruction from meeting conductors or event host want it that way in secure the public funding will be used in their group only.

No fear at all, it is money funding issue. Still...as usual for darwin, for surviving.