Live in between two cultures.....

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"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."---Eleanor Roosevelt

"Surviving opportunity will made you give out your consent to the one, who make you feel inferior." ---Nancy Liu

It seems always a dilemma for me to live in between of two cultures. Even though I can not deny the benefits of having more assets in mind in appreciating the beauty of East and West, no matter that is in literature or people. However, it provides me a spacious room to hide my thoughts and emotion when I felt sad to confront any disagreement due to the cultural differences in social behavior or perspectives.

There are many incidents happened in my life were caused by my understanding of English, a foreign language to Chinese; as in the meantime, I do see many of misinterpretation about Chinese way of life and culture by English speakers. Sometimes, I can not bear the ugliness of Westerners and can not hold my anger for them to ignore my opinions; all of these anger incidents were caused by my sensitivity of the language usage and the meaning of body languages. I do wish I can be less sensible to others; the way they talk, the facial expression, the tone holding....

I decided not to going out for any trip with my mother-in-law or any Chinese like her after an accidents happen on airplane during our trip to Hawii, she is the one bow to those drama desinging garbage White and Black flight attendant American with 90 degree Japanese style and blamed me for complaining those trash's rudeness. All just because she doesn't understand what they talking about in English. In the meantime, I do wish the generation of my mother-in-law can be smoothly pass away dying out from their immigrant's life in this country.

And all the shame of being a Chinese American in the United States like the drama in this incident can be buried along with their death and disappeared from this country while under God we pray for an fair minded ruling system to be erected on this land, which formed by immigrants as the same rule in my previous article: who will be the next one to be sent to concentration camp in the United States.

This drama display White and Black working together to place Chinese to sit on the last row of seat where originally designed for language placement. It sounds like whose term to sit on the back row of seat after Slavery abolishment 50 years ago in the United States. Very typical American style of soapy drama. This is the brutal American culture that Chinese blamed me to pick it up too fast while they still busy in 90 degree bowing gesture to any colors of this world.

Or I should say the surviving make us bow to whoever you met, black, white, brown, red, and whatsoever.....

I am always sighting too much by seeing or confronting in person with so many unpleasant experiences. In the other way, I do keep reminding myself to keep my knowledge up in competence to this world is the only way to live with pride that can help me in rejecting anybody in this country on this earth working on inferior me as second class mankind. It is the educational system raised this group of people being so snobbish to others with overwhelming, unreasonable confidence to be little others. It is also the same system training them to be such well-equipped with their surviving skill and ability and provide them opportunities to live a quality life much better than other mankind's on this earth.

It is difficult for me to cover my envy to those people live under the system setting of this country in contrary to my life lack of cover by an intelligent system setter's ruling. How I wish all the rule can be turning around to be which color look down which, and whose turn to be picked in any public place, live under teasing, in playing the ridiculous opera : "Desire and Drama."